General Chat

Ben I was watching a film with my husband and thinking of what I said to you.

So I came on to apologise, then I find that Gail has left you a message and I may have upset her too.

I was joking Ben, and Gail, but sitting back realized that it is not funny to the sufferer.
I'm not a hurtful person and definitely meant no harm to you.
Sorry.

Deanna X
with so many worries of her own....
none of which is funny.... xx

Deanna, just catching up on the posts and spotted yours. I did not take offence, thought it was funny. ::>))))). I have gone ocd on my tree, put it to good use.
And as I stated before I do not suffer form it.
My kids gave me a poster once, and it say's:

I DON'T SUFFER FROM INSANITY
I ENJOY EVERY MINUTE OF IT

And most of the time I do.

So do not worry, please.

Gail

hi everyone ,just poped in to wish everyone well ,well i managed a few hours sleep took me a while to drop of though ,and yes you are right janet its took its toal on me today oh popped out for a little while and that was it went light headed ,legs numb tingling fingers and face ,had a real bad panic /anx attack just because i was on my own ,mind playing tricks on me again thinking its sumat more ,sorry to ramble on bout myself just that i do get frightened xx thank you all

Twinkle, I have panic attacks as well, usually in the car with OH driving. Ususally I don't remember much though. It takes time to work through things, just remember little steps at a time. If you get worried when OH is away, there is usually someone on her to talk too, so you never really fully alone. We are all thinking of you.

I will catch up with everyone eventually.

Hugs

Gail

thanx gail at the moment i no im rammbling on bout myself all the time and i do apologise ,but i do think of you all .and how gratfull i am of all your support ,im just not with it at preasent and i going through a faze were im not convinsed its anx /panic , but have been told thats part of it as well thanx for putting up with my ramblings elaine x

thanks Gail I have to admit I was suffering .
I hate to hurt people ....but I do love a bit of revenge...;-0)

Came back on in between films while Allan makes our coffee.

And I love your kids poem.. it suits me so well.
My son would agree that I have been enjoying insanity for years.

He calls me a psycho.... and what is more... I love it!

So as long as you were not hurt by it, and Ben too.

Deanna XX

Elaine, you ramble away all you want, we are listening. Deanna, I do like your sense of humour, you make me chuckle. Must be something to do with being born the same month!!!

Ann
Glos

Well I've done it - finished the paper collection to send home to the UK. Now to find appropriate wrapping to protect it all. Went through all my old books and didn't I find the prayer book Elsie had recieved from her Gran in 1930. So that's going to her nephew too.
Don't ask about the other papers, they seem to multiply sitting in a box, and new mail comes in which hasn't been opened. Honestly it seems a mountain I have to climb and can't take the first step. Been trying to analyse why I can't make myself tackle them, I'm sure fear is involved, is this a phobia perhaps? yesterday I slept almost all day, and till noon today. just so tired, perhaps depression, you know I have for years expected to die at 66 because my Dad did, no rationale, just a feeling I keep trying to push away. If I am going to be gone next year I have an awful lot to do.
Love to all,
maxiMary
PS where's Purple?

Well I did tell you Ann.... all the best babies are born in April...

Glad I did not hurt anyone.

Good night everyone, sleep well.

Deanna XX

Elaine do talk!! When I used to get the panic attacks I was so scarred of everything. I couldn't even let my oh go out and leave me with my parents. I remember one mothers day he was going to put flowers on his mums grave, and I took him in the garage where my parents couldn't hear me, asked him please don't leave me on my own with them. I was crying but couldn't explain what I felt. Say as much as you want Elaine, one day I know you will be helping others by listening to their problems which you have first hand knowledge about.

I forgot I was also a counter!!! lol . I counted wall tiles while laid in the bath, floor tiles while sat on a loo, train carriages while sat at a crossing waiting to go, on coming cars, stairs, everything!! Now my job is stocktaking pmsl.

Ben how old are you?

Mary you are so kind to let all that stuff go to Elsies nephew. Wish I could find someone with so much information on a relation of mine. How wonderful, the excitement of opening the parcel and reading all your papers would be fantastic.

Been to visit my parents this afternoon, borrowed a wii to see if it would be any good for my dad who is paralised down his right side after a stroke 4 and a half years ago. Mum wouldn't be able to start it up nor could he. But we played for a couple of hours.
They said they didn't want one. At least we tried.

Thinking of you all love Carole xx

Carole I am 25.

One of my OCD symptoms is these very exhausting mental rituals where I have to repeat an image over and over and over and over and over again in my head until I get it just right, because if I dont, or try to resist the ritual, then I worry something bad will happen. I HATE having to do that but find it hard to resist the rituals.

I have netioned this on my "Irritates you" thread that I was being polite to someone and they deliberately deleted my post and when I asked why, she tagged me as "stalker" on the Tags feature on Islandoo. I was very angry at that accusation and it has given my OCd a new "What if" I am a stalker. This girl was 26 as well and an events promoter, so why that attitude??

I used to count tiles too . .. now I seem to want to line things up square, nothing can be at an angle. I'm forever strightening pictures on the wall, my mother used to say if the picture was crooked , someone was trying to get it touch with me.
At work I regularly recopy things because they aren't neat any longer.

I am totally frustrated with myself today, guess you're all off to bed now, have a good night.
maxiMary

Caz... i hope your resting today and feeling better soon....

Ann and Deanna... i have to agree with you, all the best babies are born in April as its mine and my sister Birthday's then....Although all three of my children were born in July and they are they too are the best.!

Carole...Im feeling the same as you at the mo, and OH has given me loads of tlc today, he even cooked a delicious roast chicken...Im thinking of having the coil and coming off the pill...What coil do you have?

Hope everyone had a good weekend..
Kerry

Just to correct my last post to deanna, I should have said born the same year (1940). I was born in august not April.

Ann
Glos

hello
I have been having such a good day today - 1st one ine ages but now the bubble has been burst by cruel people and am back in a depression. Wish people would leave me alone.

Goodnight

Gill

Ben I use to have a tic which I made myself do this wrigle with my hips, and tighten the muscles in each side. I knew there was no need for it, I'd started it and did it more and more. The urge to do it was taking over, I did it all the time! I knew I really had no need and wanted to stop it. But by this time it was a habbit. Habbits are so hard to break but it 's not imposible. Why don't you start by deciding which part of your ritual is the least important, and make an all out effort to stop it? Do not replace it with any substitute. Just a small part it will perhaps scare you and you could worry what if, if you don't do it. Nothing will happen, you know that really don't you.
Only by missing a part of the ritual will you retrain your mind that you don't need to do it. Once happy you don't do a part you once did, you could cut out another part of the ritual. If you want to try it we will all try to support you. Tell us what you think, and if you can do this with us. My daughter is 25 and I hate to think of you being so tuorchered by these what I guess are sort of afflictions. You are young and it will be easier to start the end of rituals now rather than give in to them and want to stop when you are older. xx

Hello fellow sufferers. Having read through the past through threads I would like to offer my support (for what it's worth).

Had a massive black cloud for the past hour, been thinking about my Mum who I lost 48 years ago. Always wondered if the family would have been less disfunctional if she had lived.

I know my physical pain migrates to my mental pain and that is a vicious circle.

It's gonna be another sleepless night.

OCD I don't have experience of except to say it seems similar to my control freak tendencies so I do sympathise.

Love Sue xx

I got employment advisor at 11-15 tomorrow and psychiatrist at 12-15 tomorrow.

Now Pissed after 2 !/2 bottles of wine.

I cant handle it

Skwirrel....its horrid when peeps **** up your day...

go to bed hun with a nice cup and give the doctor a ring

now listen Malc - you gentle giant - give the wine the heave ho - that ain't doing any good at all - a glass or two fine, but not that much. And of course you can handle it, don't say you can't - what d'you think the employment adviser is going to do to you - there to help, nothing more and the same with the psychiatrist - now get a grip Malc - I'm talking tough here - old enough to be your Gran I'm sure - think of the way the employment adviser and psychiatrist may be feeling tomorrow!!!! For all you know they could both have problems too, but they are both out to help your world improve so take the help with both hands and come away feeling better - I expect a report back tomorrow night if not before - now make sure you go to both those appointments or I shall pm you until you contact GR to get shot of me!!

Love and squidgy hugs, Ann XXXXXX